22 years ago, its been a long way. today the music tastes sweeter, my mind runs wilder, my heart wavers more confusedly, my future seems even more uncertain, my longing to travel grows a mile more, logic seems to say its not gonna work.
& let me break it down for myself.
bcos i dont know you still. bcos u dont know what u want still. bcos u are so young still. bcos we have diff values. bcos u are gonna leave soon. bcos i dont believe in things u believe its ok. bcos we are culture-ly diff, bcos you dont make me safe. bcos you nv ask me about me. bcos its all surface. bcos i dont knwo what i want. bcos i keep comparing to S. bcos i dont know. i shud pull all stops. funnily, i feel boxed up, its an automatic protection, which was completely broken down by S. but ive stop missing u S. things that arent meant to be, will not be.
Lord,stop the test, i dont even want to take it. my heart cant fail, its not fun no more.
"i dont know" seems to hover over so much, then again, the most certain person can be thrown off by the slightest change of path.
ave marie-she was lost, in so many ways.

dont ask me about my future, or life. i dont know. i feel like puking my inner guts out literally.