theres no constant.
its a whole game of hard ball playing but gaining no results.
u realize stuff amidst all these things.
u see the split in the parties.
u wonder why.
u wonder where u belong.
u wonder why some people change all of a sudden.
u wonder why some people dont bother treating u the same as before once they know u wont give them more, what they want.
u look around to look for familiarity, comfort.
u wonder at the choices u made.
u wonder hard.
u know u tried hard.
u wonder about ur future.
u wonder