Being young sometimes brings innocent questions filled with genuine want to get an answer, annoyance at fate & many times being hurt and hence, these questions.
like "why am i born in this family", a famous question i loved asking myself in the death of the night, crying myself to sleep cos my brothers just could not stop making me feel like an alien in the family, could not stop teasing me breaking me down & i had no choice but to listen to them cos we still were sleeping in the same room, seeing other children have their mums come pick them up, seeing other children get along w their siblings so well, n wondering why i never had that, well, in retrospect, its amazing children, even when they cant really think logically can understand, desire and feel hurt that adults can feel too &, well, my brothers were just being boys
And no, not a pity story here, i just realized how lucky i am to have this wonderful VOO family of mine! when some ppl told me that their parents dictate their lives, their studies, their careers, i just cant fathom that! My dad is simply the best dad ever! yes, he forced me to memorize the damn math timetables, he whipped me good but still, it was for my good. Not once did he force me to take a path he wanted me to take. more often than not, its me who tells him what i feel like & he will always ALWAYS say something good about tt thing im gonna do. Just basically, letting me do whatever i want with his quiet support. i used to think, why wouldnt my dad just tell me so i wouldnt have to choose but i guess i raelly appreciate this now.& i wonder if i took accounting and finance was a partial influence from him, cos i still dream of working on a business deal with him, daughter father team. I am my daddy;s girl, my grandma once said, if i wanted the stars in the sky, he would get them for me. i didnt doubt that, i knew my bobby would, even if this sounds ludicrous, i know that he would do whatever to make me happy=) thats how much i know he loves me, and i love him too=)
My mum is classic HAHA yes we quarelled more than any mother-daughter maybe cos i felt she was always a lil biased, well she is, but she's still a really supportive mum, never dictated my life, ok maybe forced me to learn the piano and not ballet which was what i wanted, but still, when i wanted to study in the US, she told me to go for it even tho my dad didnt really want me to cos of the costs. and i knew she just wanted the best for me, cos she nv had a chance for college, hence, she wanted me to have something i raelly want, something she nv had.
i cannot fathom my parents forcing me!well, i got to sort my life out soon and somehow they trust me with that?!? i cant really comprehend that but i guess i can when i be a mum (not soon, of course)
well, my lil brother and i are like buddies now. sleepovers and girls talk in his room, constant harrassment of him tho annoys him bonds us.i want him to go thru stuff i wished i had but nv had the chance too. i guess thats how my parents want me to have to. well, this is the only thing i can relate too.
as for my older brother, well, i shall write something when i have something.
and why am i born in this family? i dont know, i only know how blessed i am.
like "why am i born in this family", a famous question i loved asking myself in the death of the night, crying myself to sleep cos my brothers just could not stop making me feel like an alien in the family, could not stop teasing me breaking me down & i had no choice but to listen to them cos we still were sleeping in the same room, seeing other children have their mums come pick them up, seeing other children get along w their siblings so well, n wondering why i never had that, well, in retrospect, its amazing children, even when they cant really think logically can understand, desire and feel hurt that adults can feel too &, well, my brothers were just being boys
And no, not a pity story here, i just realized how lucky i am to have this wonderful VOO family of mine! when some ppl told me that their parents dictate their lives, their studies, their careers, i just cant fathom that! My dad is simply the best dad ever! yes, he forced me to memorize the damn math timetables, he whipped me good but still, it was for my good. Not once did he force me to take a path he wanted me to take. more often than not, its me who tells him what i feel like & he will always ALWAYS say something good about tt thing im gonna do. Just basically, letting me do whatever i want with his quiet support. i used to think, why wouldnt my dad just tell me so i wouldnt have to choose but i guess i raelly appreciate this now.& i wonder if i took accounting and finance was a partial influence from him, cos i still dream of working on a business deal with him, daughter father team. I am my daddy;s girl, my grandma once said, if i wanted the stars in the sky, he would get them for me. i didnt doubt that, i knew my bobby would, even if this sounds ludicrous, i know that he would do whatever to make me happy=) thats how much i know he loves me, and i love him too=)
My mum is classic HAHA yes we quarelled more than any mother-daughter maybe cos i felt she was always a lil biased, well she is, but she's still a really supportive mum, never dictated my life, ok maybe forced me to learn the piano and not ballet which was what i wanted, but still, when i wanted to study in the US, she told me to go for it even tho my dad didnt really want me to cos of the costs. and i knew she just wanted the best for me, cos she nv had a chance for college, hence, she wanted me to have something i raelly want, something she nv had.
i cannot fathom my parents forcing me!well, i got to sort my life out soon and somehow they trust me with that?!? i cant really comprehend that but i guess i can when i be a mum (not soon, of course)
well, my lil brother and i are like buddies now. sleepovers and girls talk in his room, constant harrassment of him tho annoys him bonds us.i want him to go thru stuff i wished i had but nv had the chance too. i guess thats how my parents want me to have to. well, this is the only thing i can relate too.
as for my older brother, well, i shall write something when i have something.
and why am i born in this family? i dont know, i only know how blessed i am.
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