when you have to turn away when you dont have much to say. maybe i will afterall cant bear the sadness of parting. i baked cheesecake today. its absolutely awesome wonderfully best tasting oreo cheesecake, however i do not experience what some ppl do, for example they feel so at peace with their inner zen while cooking or baking. No i do not feel anything like that, i feel hot and sweaty and extremely eager to eat my cake. I bake cos i want to eat, not cos i feel some peace. and i will pick at the cake once its out of the oven so it becomes really ugly. i love my cakes. about the peace inner zen thing, maybe ppl are lying to themselves believing some holy comoly thingy.

looks gorgeous, taste divine

i need to learn to love myself. i think every one has to .
im being dated every day till thurs. i feel like im trying to squeeze my 20 yrs of life into these last few days before i leave. i will return anyways=) but it just weird, just like squeezing 20 yrs of my stuff into a large suitcase. i dont feel like missing out a single piece cos everything means so much to me. 20 kg not enough leh how. paris hilton will have an easy time tho, she will just carry an empty coco chanel pink luggage with maybe her ugly pooch in it and then buy everything at new there, addin to her never ending collection of , i have to say, pretty nice clothes.