are we demented? are we twisted? whats my core? so i can be swayed yet held on so constantly strong.
i believe before "its a life blessed by God with abundant blessings, slapped with so many miracles. thats me living life to the fullest" like how i felt in china.
do i still believe that? i want to match that with the reality i am in. i want to feel like that again. i want to feel alive. i want to sit in the mountains w the moon as the only source of light, to be blown away by beauty so majestic so aggressive it rips my heart apart. that everything else feels redundant & all that matters, aint my future problems or past tortures, just the present, just me and the now. & the amazement of this world.
picasso is crazy in his mind. thats why he siad everything u can imagine can be real. true to an extent! see i say he's crazy, btu i wish i was as crazy. i want ot have such a passion for something and go crazy about it. i rather this than normal, boring.