so A announced quietly tt she;s already married while we waltzed down the shelves at safeway.
more of an arranged one, to please her parents. & i asked isnt that sad & she said its ok, feelings can be developed over time. not entirely false, unless uve been good platonic friends for years w that guy &just aint into him that way. and she said that as long as he likes her, tts enough. really? its like the guy's got his claim, his ultimate object of desire(YOU A!)& what have you got? not much but a confused spirit & forced mindset to like him cos he's already your husband.no? its amazin how she puts on that happy face each day like nothing can knock her down yet go thru all these craziness internally.
on a side totally warped note, a sudden thought came to me after zi said sex is overrated[ dont quite know or agree but to each her own=) ], one night stand can be liberating. In the sense that both parties are completely clueless about each other's real flaws, and really, come on, one night standers dont really care about how fat you are, how lumpy, shit like that & the next day, u dont have to deal w the stuff about a person tt turns you off bt yet u got to wrok around it, like in a real deal. but then again, this comes w all the risks, the diseases you might catch, the degredation of state of being. but then again, is it all in the mind? its a mind game,the strongest wins, aint it?
yea and to convince myself im not totally crazy (i nd to lock this blog so i can write more random thoughts that i can never say out in person or even form such sentences just off hand, another liberation)n gone off all loca about sex all of a sudden, i think ppl on the other hand should talk about sex, there should be education about this, the weighings of ad/disadv, esp from ppl who have experienced it all.
i still stand by my saying that people do things sometimes that may not be the best thing to do just bcos they lack the education, or the exposure to both good and more imptantly bad sides.
more of an arranged one, to please her parents. & i asked isnt that sad & she said its ok, feelings can be developed over time. not entirely false, unless uve been good platonic friends for years w that guy &just aint into him that way. and she said that as long as he likes her, tts enough. really? its like the guy's got his claim, his ultimate object of desire(YOU A!)& what have you got? not much but a confused spirit & forced mindset to like him cos he's already your husband.no? its amazin how she puts on that happy face each day like nothing can knock her down yet go thru all these craziness internally.
on a side totally warped note, a sudden thought came to me after zi said sex is overrated[ dont quite know or agree but to each her own=) ], one night stand can be liberating. In the sense that both parties are completely clueless about each other's real flaws, and really, come on, one night standers dont really care about how fat you are, how lumpy, shit like that & the next day, u dont have to deal w the stuff about a person tt turns you off bt yet u got to wrok around it, like in a real deal. but then again, this comes w all the risks, the diseases you might catch, the degredation of state of being. but then again, is it all in the mind? its a mind game,the strongest wins, aint it?
yea and to convince myself im not totally crazy (i nd to lock this blog so i can write more random thoughts that i can never say out in person or even form such sentences just off hand, another liberation)n gone off all loca about sex all of a sudden, i think ppl on the other hand should talk about sex, there should be education about this, the weighings of ad/disadv, esp from ppl who have experienced it all.
i still stand by my saying that people do things sometimes that may not be the best thing to do just bcos they lack the education, or the exposure to both good and more imptantly bad sides.
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